My Holiday Diary

One more day. Lazy day. I woke up at 10am this morning. But, still feeling tired. Frankly, 29 days more to leave my home. I bet that I'll miss everyone, everything over here. However, I look forward to my new life. I did dozens of Add Maths questions today. I realised that I have lots of daily tasks. Add Maths, English, Piano, Exercise, Newspaper, Computer, and one more thing to learn (not decided yet). Haha! This afternoon I went for shopping with my parents. Nothing much to talk about. We took lunch at Sushi King. Later, Dad bought a pair of sport shoes from New Balance, since we have a voucher each from participating Penang Bridge International Marathon (PBIM). Dad says that he has to help me brush up my Add Maths prior going to Singapore. I need to brush up my piano practical, also prior going to Singapore. So, now I am having Add Maths Marathon and 'Pianothon'.

When I was young, my mother brought me for ballet class. But, I didn't want to join. I denied it. Mum had no choice. But, now, I regret. I wish I were a ballerina. Would it be too late for me to learn ballet? Few days ago, I heard from my cousin sister that she's learning ballet. But, she is 16 this year. And, could she catch up with the steps in ballet class? Since she could learn ballet, why can't I? I'm younger than her for 1 year, and my body would  be more flexible. However, I felt quite sheepish to tell my mother about this. So, I made a decision. I wrote a note to her. The next day, she talked to me. She told me that ballet should be learnt by a young kid, when her bones and her body are still soft and flexible. And, I knew that I'd fail. But, what dad told me was, if I could cope with my studies, piano and all those stuff in Singapore, after a few months I've been there, and if I really want to learn, there's no harm learning one more stuff. And, may God bless, a ballerina was my mother's dream, I wish to at least learn something about ballet in my lifetime, before it's late. However, I know that I'm delaying. The elder I am, the harder it would be for me to learn such thing. Really, I regret. I wish time may go backwards. Go back at least ten years ago. Sorry, mum. You couldn't achieve your dream. I'm suppose to help you. But, I couldn't. Would my daughter learn ballet next time? God, I'm lost. Please, help me. I want to learn ballet. As that's my mum's dream. I don't want the same thing to occur on my daughter next time. But, I've no choice. What can I do? I only have a month here. The only thing I could do is, learn some basic ballet steps from the ballet tutorial videos online. But, I know, that's not enough. What about the ballet shoes?

Yi Qian: when you see this, don't be startled. As I told you, in my 15 years of lifetime, till now, the only thing that I regret about is, I didn't learn ballet.

I hate myself! Why didn't I accept my mother's idea, to learn ballet? Otherwise, today, I'd be enjoying the joyfulness and the beauty of ballet. SORRY, I FAILED! Would my dream reveal?